Up and Coming

I finally finished my "Last Song I'm Wasting on You" vid. Anybody care to see? Here ya go:



[Listening to "Leave Out All The Rest" by Linkin Park....Just realized it fits with Michael Jackson. RIP]

Up and Coming Phantom of the Opera videos:

Fanmade movie trailer to the 2004 movie
"Slow Me Down" by Emmy Rossum (Christine Daae in the movie)
"Cursum Perficio" by Enya [<- This will take a while... >.<]
"Dead Boy's Poem" by Nightwish (Highly recommended band!)
"Anything You Can Do" from Annie Get Your Gun

Listening to: "Eye of the Tiger" (Rocky theme song)
Reading: Thirteen Reasons Why
Mood: Wishing the day were a little longer.
Thinking of: Phantom of the Opera music vids.

Summer is more welcome than you can ever imagine...

Well, school's finally out and I, thank God, at last have some real time to be working on my Youtube videos. Here's a taste of what's coming up:

PHANTOM OF THE OPERA MUSIC VIDEOS TO:
"The Last Song I'm Wasting On You" by Evanescence
"Dead Boy's Poem" by Nightwish
"Anything You Can Do" from Annie Get Your Gun


Cheers!


"Phan-dom of the Opera....." That's a thought....

Oh no, oh no, oh no...

IF YOU SEEK AMY is stuck in my head! That is the ABSOLUTE LAST song I need to hear right now!

"La la la lala la la la, la la la lala la la la....
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy..."

ARGHHHHHHH!!!

>.<

Would someone like to force me to start this journaling assignment I'm forced to do for English?

Better. -Ish.

My state of mind is a little calmer, unlike that insane abyss of total chaos. Literally. There are two choices....either he decides to take me back (in a friend way), or he doesn't. I'm bracing myself for the second choice.

When all else fails....MUSIC!

"Cursum Perficio" by Enya. One of the most *extreme* Enya songs, I love it because it sounds so incredibly evil during the first part. 2nd most-played on my iPod.



"The Poet and the Pendulum" by Nightwish. One of my favorite bands. Metal. From Europe. They dip into many genres....this song is the second-longest in my iTunes library at 14 minutes. Epic, very metallish, spazzy at times and just great!



"Cloud Nine" by Evanescence. An awesome Woe Is Me song and one of my favorites off The Open Door, their second album. Great to blast really loudly when you're feeling hurt, or guilty, or like nothing.

Read the one below this entry, and then this explanation for it.

I developed a very special bond with a classmate of mine several months ago. He was more than a friend and despite his obstacles, he was very purpose-driven and understanding, but we were not going out because it hadn't progressed there. Due to some mistakes I made, I think our friendship/bond is over for good. And although I wrote an apology, I don't think he'll forgive me this time, because it was one time too many. He thinks that I made him feel inferior on purpose, although I never meant to hurt him at all. We're in the same ____ class and it will be very difficult to keep on going when we're so close to each other. I actually cried a while after--it was almost impossible to handle at that moment. Now all those positive, happy love songs seem to be mocking me. I can't accuse him because it's against my nature. He won't forgive me this time, even though I'm sitting here waiting for him to come back to me.

I literally feel like I'm spinning, out of control. All those songs lyrics are true.

I'm not mentioning any names here, but

• Although most of the blame lies on me, it's not all my fault. He is VERY perceptive, yet sometimes jumps to conclusions too quickly and he accuses me of some things that aren't true.
• I hurt him unintentionally, and it turns out that his words hurt me in return. Ah, karma.
• So after I read his response, I felt-100% real-- like my chair started spinning sideways into the ground.
  
• It's more than just a friendship, but now it's pretty much gone. he's ready to say goodbye to me for good and I feel like I can't coax another chance from him.
• I feel so bad for hurting him like this. But I never did it on purpose. Mistakes, mistakes, mistakes. Over and over again.
  
• Maybe I should become a hermit.